Her accomplishment, however, left her targeted by a loud but minority sector of “Star Wars” fans who have been denounced by “Last Jedi” director Rian Johnson and many others in the fandom.
“Their words reinforced a narrative I had heard my whole life: that I was “other,” that I didn’t belong, that I wasn’t good enough, simply because I wasn’t like them,” Tran wrote. “And that feeling, I realize now, was, and is, shame, a shame for the things that made me different, a shame for the culture from which I came from. And to me, the most disappointing thing was that I felt it at all.”
These feelings, shared by many now and those who came before her, she said, have led to “a literal erasure of culture that still has me aching to the core.”
She said she has since realized “I had been brainwashed into believing that my existence was limited to the boundaries of another person’s approval.”
“Yes, I have been lied to. We all have,” she wrote. “And it was in this realization that I felt a different shame — not a shame for who I was, but a shame for the world I grew up in. And a shame for how that world treats anyone who is different.”
She’s intent on pressing forward with her goal to tell stories in “a world that for so long has tasted only one thing.”
“I know how important that is. And I am not giving up,” she said. “My real name is Loan. And I am just getting started.”